To: fogglc@esvax.dnet.dupont.com Subject: RE: Does it flot ?---------- From: fogglc@esvax.dnet.dupont.com Sent: Saturday, April 13, 1996 9:25 PM To: Peter Pflaum; Peter Pflaum Subject: RE: Does it flot ?
You are at a very high level of understanding, my friend.
Oh NO !! Just a light foot step by step ( sometimes in the wrong direction)
The idea of working on stories, works for me. Your understanding and insights are doors to mine. We could work on the dog with the bell for awhile. Everything is connected to everything else.
The discovery of doors and windows into various subjects can come from all kinds of places.
I believe that the Work -- and its rigidity -- grew so after G's death in 1949. Even G criticized Ouspenski's attempts to carry on -- though it was Ouspenski's short book (... something on Human Development) that got me connected to the whole. After self study for about a year -- a period of oustanding health, I might add -- I sought a working group.
There is one at wisdom in Orlando with some original connections - I am terrible with groups - too smart for my own good - smartie pants I think is the expression - I know in your spare time - you will love to interact directly on the site. You use ftp.turnpike.net user pflaump password synergy to download and up load pages.
Thereby you can have a site of your own and AltaVista will find you and direct others there. Also we can list it with submit-it and postmaster. Maybe the system you use will or maybe it won't - but where there is an interest there is a way.
There is a book see /documents G as the man of mystery -
The un-find-able.. That is very interesting in itself.. I think it was in motion.. the dance itself and the performance not a "content".
A very self-indulgent cloister of people, it seemd to me, who had not yet been as close as myself. I have seen my own "Glimpses from the Real World,"
That has always been "the problem" there are a lot of things others can't do for you - can't love, or die, or see the sunset, or smell, or feel your pain. One of my children said that " you don't have my feeling" when we suggested how he should feel - That's OK you will feel differently tomorrow ? We are always thinking if not telling others how to feel. What we expect. We react to others projected feeling about ourselves. In "What Matters" (Swartz) he comes to the defense theme. We are built around defenses - body armor in Fritz Perls terms ( also Lowen - Riech ) Do we want to give that up - can we give up protection ? One form of protection is "cult" belief. Good god will take care of it like our good mother. Another is the office, the parking space, the executive dinning room. Adult but childish people will fight like hell to protect their defenses - their special spaces, their "role" territory. That's where the tire hits the road.
which motivates me to stay loose and let it happen when it will. I work mostly toward this by living as real as I can, and by staying open to discovering the thread/influence of others who are genuine, no matter where. I no longer expect to find them in organized activity.
Everything takes practice - I have a list of tapes, (Yoga Shalom, music, movies) a good HU - olm - the Golden Rain - I do myself - now and then and need a regular practice to keep focus.
The head is strong, foolish dog. It always tries to figure things out. I have stayed closest, in the long run, to the Way as written by Lao Tse. It's hard to get people to rally around it, and there are no rules. But it keeps my mindful of the water, that seeks the lowest places, and the uncarved wood -- which can take any form. Yet even to speak these many things makes less known, not more.
exactly - even unto China - mirrors - reflections - If I reflect some that is not me - then me becomes something else.
The lover and the beloved - what a guilt trip -
The old dog grrrs when you try to move him.. No trouble being a dog ,but a good dog takes practice.
Are your kids living with you?
Third family, first Lynette from the village - went to England in 59, she stayed - two ( neo-british children ) Lara is in traditional Jewish community in Newcastle. Michael, whereabouts unknown, was special forces ( Rangers) and SAS. First down in desert one - with the air traffic control on his back.
The SAS is one model of independent, creative action outside the chain of command.
The military has always had trouble with the type of group.
Second, Susan Whitney now in South West Africa ( Columbia Teachers College - with new husband Joe Granis ) William does book jackets and author tours for publisher in NYC, Latin rap, graphics, and teachers anthropology at CCNY, Ph.D. work on Pentecostals in Cuba. Girl friend in Eastern Germany.
The town has no phones so they communicate by cellar phones - a technology jump. Melanie teachers science and physics somewhere in NYC after several years at the America School is San Jose CR.
The two here ( third wife, Mary Anne ) 12 (Sara) and 8 (Blaine) go to 12 person one room SDA school. Mary Anne works in a program for teen parents (mothers).
Mine just came back from the Poconos with me. We hooked up the water and built a fence for two small dogs.
The girls said they thought I seemed very happy there -- and that I was like a dog, happier outdoors with space to run. My bell is ego and pride.
I have been thinking about the bell - our master gives us a bell ( ego and false pride ) and we think its a reward but it's a warning to other that we are know to bite without reason - let me think more on that /
These are harder to wear out in the woods. If you come between a bear and her cubs, you can't talk your way out of the situation. I'm enjoying our conversation. yo, tambien Chip